I'm glad that birthday party happened; who knew that it would be the last one with all of them attending?
At the time, when my family was going through all of these losses, I remember thinking to myself that it was reaching the point of the ridiculous...3 funerals within such a short time. Multiple losses like that just don't happen, do they?
Since then, I've changed jobs and work at a hospice. I am sad to report that, yes, it does in fact happen to others as well. I couldn't have more empathy for them.
This posting isn't meant to be a sad one; I'd rather it be more like a reflection back on where my family has been, and hope that they are doing okay coming out the other side. Not perfect, but okay.
Multiple losses are mind numbing, heart wrenching, infuriating and you never quite see them coming. It is truly a time when all the cliched expressions coming flying out at you, "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger" or "God doesn't give you more than you can handle". I grew to hate those expressions even though I know people's intentions were good in offering them.
As spring is more firmly planted (pun, pun), and the flowers are out, I'm purposely wanting to take a bit of time with friends and family...and yes, the little flowers too. :)
So...as I get ready for work, and I wait to get a big bill for a new furnace, I am forcing myself to try to keep calm and to remember that last big family birthday party so that I appreciate all the things I have to be grateful for... you know who you are.
XoXo,
Lisa
P.S. Meg, I picked the Gerber flowers for you.
